obsession

[Ed's Note: The following was written for a friend's project. The goal was to write an obsessive letter to someone. Forgive the short length; I was limited to a single page.]

Hey.

I know that I haven’t spoken to you in so long. It’s really been a while, hasn’t it? How are you? I know that you’ve probably been real hard at work with that whole “studying abroad” thing, but I hope you remembered to have fun while you’ve been away. What am I saying? You’re not the type to be all business, all the time. We all miss you back home, but we’re glad to see you’re doing something you love.

I, on the other hand, am doing the same old, same old. It’s one in the morning here in the U.S, and I should probably be in bed. Instead, I thought of you and decided to write this letter. There’s music in the background keeping me focused. They’re called Buffalo Daughter, this group from Japan that are really cool. You should check them out! We both know how good my taste in music is, ha ha! Even with this music, it still feels quiet around here. It feels darker, too. Like, somehow, the lack of your bright smile and infectious laugh have made the world around me a worse place. Hokey, I know, but it’s true. It’s lonely in here.

So I was thinking about meeting up again when you get back to America. I still have that box of store-bought Sushi you gave me when we had lunch together. It’s not edible of course, don’t be silly, but it’s nice to have around as a reminder, even though it smells terrible and I’m pretty sure that that’s mold and not Wasabi lurking in the plastic corners. Thank God for social networking sites, you still look as beautiful as ever. Better than your friends, for sure (a wild Snorlax appears, ha ha)! Although I have to say, there’s some shots of you with this guy that kind of make me feel uncomfortable…

Wait, what the hell is this? Why did I not see this sooner? “Relationship Status: In a relationship.” What is this shit all about?

In a relationship?
In a relationship?
In a relationship?

Fuck! Fuck you! The fuck is wrong with you!? Did you not somehow get it when we were together that we were meant to be? Who is this guy? Whoever he is, just know that he’s not even in my league! Some dumb fucking tiny-dicked motherfucker is what he is! He can’t love you the way I can! I thought you loved me. Why are you doing this to me? What did I do to deserve this? I hate you!

I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry. I don’t hate you. I don’t hate you, I swear!

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.